tears will stay with you forever ,

i cant sleep. idk why. this happens a lot during examination mood.

suddenly i remember our moments last year. especially masa nak amek result. and i remember this,

' adik - adik kitorang yang dapat 5A, kitorang yang over excited (: '

if i'm not mistaken, susu wrote that in her blog. masa tu masa hari ambik keputusan upsr, and haziqah call kakak dia, yang masa tu bawak phone pegi sekolah, and told her our result,kaklong was with susu. so kitorang dengar dorang menjerit, kuat gilaa. and i went and read susu's posts on Novemver '08, but couldnt find it :( quite sad actually,

but still, i read her posts on 2008. idk i like reading ur blog, su ? and definitely, found something ( sorry akakk ),

What do you think about 2?
adik angkat ku. <33333

and,

i had little fight with fatin.
(no not you fatin raihana.)
but things are okay now.
=)

love her.
<3

used to fight with you, kan dear ? :) but then everything went normal as usual, we acted like kids. used to share things together, and most importantly, stories and secrets. which we dont, now. and i just dont get it, why ? i know this thing is over, yes it is. but somehow there's this feeling in my heart, saying its NOT. because ... we're not close anymore ? yeahh its the feeling saying that , she has grown up and this girl is not hanging out with the juniors like she used to ? this girl who would just spend her time with the juniors and roll on the floor laughing bout the stupid jokes ? but maybe it was my fault. all from the beginning. acted like a moron and cause people troubles. and made her, somehow hated me. ( not saying you ARE hating me ). you know, i miss this when she wanna tell me something. ' EH AWAK, NAK DENGAR CERITA TAK ? ' and without waiting for me to say yes or no, she'll continue with her story, hahaa :') i miss waiting for her infront of the school and walked home together with fatin r and the boys. and dial her number everytime i feel like crying and there she will be, comforting me. miss sharing her laughters and her tears. OH and you know what, i'm damn missing her tight and warm hugs. but she is just her. being cute and blur milky, enjoying her life. maybe it was me who hopes and dreams a lot. but people always say,

' seeing you happy, makes me happy (: '

seeing you laugh made me smile. seeing you cry, made my heart broke into pieces.

Nurul Farhana bt Suhaimi, no matter what happen, i will always love you. no matter what we've been through, no matter how much you ignore me, no matter how long we will stay this way, my love for you remain strong in my heart.

* Sorry for the emo post, i was crying while posting this. And sorry dear, if this post hurts you, didnt mean to.and sorry for the broken english.

Kalau ada orang beri impak terhadap hidup anda, tulislah tentangnya. Tulislah tentangnya dalam journal. - Hanis Zalikha