assalamualaikum (:
oh hye. oh yeah really, i do wanna know. what happens if the guy you are with currently is your prince charming, but he didnt feel the same way towards you ? you're not his cinderella ?
what if the guy thought this was all just a game ? oh , its just for fun. one way of enjoying life. hm ?
what if he promised you things you hope'll happen, but it just wont. cos the guy wont keep his promiseS. to him, they're just plain letters and words. oh , they are.
what if you and him promised, you guys will go through everything together, through rain or shine, through hards and easy. you promised to him , you wont leave him no matter what happens. and he does the same thing. but then suddenly, everything change and it seems to become weird when ,
When i dont understand what is going on and why does that happen. to ME at least.
when i gave him solutions but he just wont listen. he insist on following his own way, cos that is the right way. well i insisted on something, which i think i should hold it, FOREVER. seriously, im holding on to it. im not breaking my promise to you.
but then yeah , its true. what he said is true. seriously, it is.
yes awak, saya tk paksa awak untk terima saya. saya tk paksa awak untuk turut kehendak saya. saya tk paksa awak untk lupakan dia, ye die. saya tk paksa awak untk paksa diri awak lakukan semua ni untuk saya. sebab saya tahu awak tk suka paksaan. well sape suke kan ? cuma rasanya tak tahu la awak perasan ke tak, saya benci comparisons. yet, awak suka compare saya dengan dia.
YEAH !
saya tahu saya tk sebaik dia. saya tk secantik dia. saya tk sealim dia. saya tk sesopan dia. saya tk selembut dia. saya tk pemalu mcm dia. saya tk ada mata cantik macam dia. saya tk ada muka mengancam macam dia. saya tk ada perangai macam dia. saya tk ada senyuman manis macam dia. saya tk ada sikap perempuan idaman yang awak nak, macam dia ada. saya tk ada gaya jalan macam dia ada. saya tk ada suara manja macam dia ada. saya tk ada jelingan maut macam dia ada. saya tk ada pencapaian yang boleh dibanggakan oleh awak, macam dia ada. ye, saya tk ada BANYAK BENDA, yang dia ada, yang awak suka.
Tapii one thing for sure, saya masih manusia yang ada hati dan perasaan. sedangkan baby pun menangis kalau hatinya terluka, inikan budak 13 tahun.
kalau awak rasa apa awak buat tu betul, pilihan awak buat tu bagus, teruskan lah dengan kehendak hati. cuma saya MINTAK SANGAT-SANGAT, jangan fikir ikut ego. jangan fikir awak playboy, TAK, awak bukan. cuma tolong fikir ikut kata hati, fikir ikut fikiran yang waras dan tenang. Walaupun saya tak halang apa keputusan awak, TAK bermakna saya setuju, harap maklum.
macam kaklong ana cakap :
cinta dan memiliki adalah dua perkara yang berbeza. tengok dia happy pun dah cukup buat kita rasa bahagia, walaupun kite tk memiliki dia.
thank you (:
and so this post, im not pointing it to anyone. cuma nak luahkan apa yang terpendam, yang rasanya takde siapa akan faham. maaf awak kalau awak marah saya post ni.
and boy, no matter what you have done to me, i just cant stop loving you :)
2 comments:
Well darling , just a short note .
Dont push your self so hard that when you fell one day , you wont have the guts to get up . What you really really need now is your friends
a place where you can talk laugh and be yourself with all your hearts .
This is a painfull journey . If its
not a painfull , it will never give you a precious thought .
Just be wiser and keep your guts and mind on . There are lots to embrace in this world darling :)
Kalau jodoh tak kemana .
yeahh you're right, and thank you. i'll try my best ,
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