Somewhere along the journey

I thought of making that as my new blog url.


So hey there, it has been ages since I last updated this old dusty rusty blog. Sorry bby I just lost my writing skill (has it ever been any before?) so which answers why I am not updating my blog since I got home from boarding school.

One day left... to 2013. Time is surely flying. 2012 has been a rollercoaster for me. There has been ups and downs(though I shall say most of the time it's negative) moments and each of 'em has surely brought changes into my life. Which is why I am a new me.

Lol on that. Still the same annoying joyah hyperactive crazy loud crybaby lame fatin. Peace.


But yeah somehow I've changed. From the way I think, the way I handle things, the way I handle my emotions, the way I interact with people around me & most important thing of all, my relationship with Allah. Alhamdulillah, ever since I'm one of mjsc jb's students, I've changed in terms of getting closer to Allah The Almighty. I learn to cover my aurat properly, I wear socks bcs I finally realize my feet is part of aurat & I try to spend more time each day to get closer to Allah. This.. is one of the feelings I have that is growing in my heart and God's will, I will always feel this way. Syukran, Ya Allah.

Boarding school has been good. I learnt new things, gained new experiences, make new friends and learnt to be independent..? Hah hah. Olahraga & Orange Run were my bestest memories of all. Out of the college with friends, long journeys in the bus, playing kucipak to kill the boredom, outings at night after the tournaments & persuading the coach to let us skip school after a longgg and tiring journey(though we failed most of the time lulz). 

4 Canopus' classmates and Excellent homeroom family has been great. Without them, tiny part of me would die. Somehow.. Lols. I spent most of my time with them. In class, after school, during prep. It has always been the same faces well I cant escape and it is so suffocating lol joke joke joke. The peeps are great, we're a family. But what is a family without conflicts, ay? Yepp we do fight, a lot. I remember the night before going back for raya, we were cleaning up our room and packing stuffs to go back and I had a fight with my homeroom members for some stupid reason I shall say. & thats why I said, I now know how to control my emotions(due to stupid arguments with them actually so thank you lulz).

& yes, my homeroom members are my classmates(approximately 2 homerooms per class)


I think I typed too much up there... Lols on me. I will let the pictures talk bcs I bet you are tired of those letters(bajet macam ada reader je -.-)

This is the classmates.

B3-2-29 Omg I miss my dormmates :(

My first ever junior yang tidur together x)

The KLCC guy. Thaqif, the pres & unfortunately me, as the vice pres.

GIRLSSS NIGHT OH MY GOD.

Or I shall say masqvint night. 

During PUM night. :)

Akilah from MRSM Baling, Kedah.
Met her during the Festival Seni at my college :)

In the bus, on the way back to KL.

Semua menganjing pose aku lempang sekor sekor kang.

@ Toys R Us during one of our outings B-)

The girls omg loves.

Semester One ; nerd faces.

Done with our finals form Semester Two & we straight went out for outing.

Watched the movie Sinister!

An-nisaa came to my college for the festival seni! :D

Hey college, see you in 2 days T__T

It's 2 am now and I'm finally satisfied. Will update later about my new blog url. Till then, Assalamualaikum & au revoir! X

See you

"Andai kamu berjumpa dengan seorang wanita yang menenangkan hati, redup pada pandangan, sejuk hati bila mengenangkan, jauh setia merindu, dekat kasih berpadu.. Jangan jadikan dia KEKASIH!
Kerana itu merugikan, jadikan dirinya ISTERI"

"Kenapa kau perfect sangat do? Cantik, suara sedap, pandai, baik, pandai masak. Beruntungnya aku."



..... To me, promises are not meant to be broken. I'll see you in the future.

Somehow

I miss updating this blog. I miss writing continuously, telling the whole world about my feelings. About my life, my thoughts. I love writing. What happened? Where did everything went wrongggggg?!

Lol macam putus cinta.

It's 1.30 am now nd I am seriously sleepy will update later. Oh yes btw, thought of changing this blog url. 

Welcome, new month.

May you be a month full of joy & happiness.

Have a blessed Ramadhan, everyone.

Take care, xx

A whole new thing

I'm going back to Johor in few hours time. Yes, we're still in Ramadhan which means I'll be fasting at maktab with friends, not family. That saddens me a lot. I've never been far from family all these while, especially during Ramadhan.


Breathless.


It is going to be hard at first, I know. Waking up in the morning for sahur with your friends, breakfasting with your friends. Not being able to go to bazaar with your family and gather at the dining table when Maghrib is approaching. Memories will always remain memories.


I'm still at home now but I'm already drown in my own tears.


I'm gonna miss my family a lot. My little sister. Life at boarding school seems so lonely with the same routine everyday. Another 4 weeks to go till my next return. 


Till then, au revoir xx

How time flies

• It's mid of July, 2012.
• I realise how time is flying so fast.
• I realise I think a lot lately & I keep things to myself a lot.
• I just dont know how to express my feelings anymore.
• Yes, I fake my smile just to let people know I'm still alive though I'm dead inside.
• Being far from family and your own place hurts a lot.
• I still want home after 4 months of living in boarding school.
• I still cant tolerate people who judge others easily.
• I still cant accept the fact that I'm reaching the end of being sixteen.
• I'm single after 2 yrs & 6 months relationship.
• I am still trying to stand up on my own.
• I keep myself busy at boarding school so that I would forget about the outside world.
• I hate some of my wardens.
• I'm glad I am finally able to cope with the studies.
• I hate the fact that I am going back to Johor tomorrow & spend a month of Ramadhan at boarding school, not family.
• I hate seeing people change & leave & forget everything we used to go through together.
• I'm heartless.
• I hate being ignored or left out.
• I am missing moments seeing my little sister growing up and that sucks.
• I just wish for Syawal with my perfect complete family.
• I am eager with the cooperation of MRSM with Mice to raise fund for people in Somalia.
• I don't open up my stories to anyone anymore.
• I keep things to myself.
• I keep things to myself.
• I keep things to myself.

Old times

Taken from Anis's blog. I miss every and each in this picture..

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak!

Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak untuk semua umat Islam! :D 

Cepatnya masa berlalu.. Kejap je dah bulan 7, dah puasa. Lepasni dah bulan Syawal. Ya Allah, panjangkanlah umur aku sekeluarga sehingga ke penghujung Ramadhan. Amin!

Alhamdulillah, first day sahur & puasa & buka dekat rumah :') With my loved ones by my side, everything seems to be perfect. I wouldnt ask for more. Oh wait, i'd ask for a longer Ramadhan holiday so I could stay with my family hihi.

I am so not ready for fasting at boarding school with other peeps.

Nanti mesti sayu bila sahur & puasa jauh daripada family. This is my first experience, I shall say I am not strong enough to go through it. But well, lets just say this is an early preparation for overseas later. Life must go on chaiyok chaiyok.

Anyways, just to insert a favourite video of mine. Nasyid Ramadhan. Everytime dengar mesti sayu.. tsk tsk. Selamat berpuasa & selamat beramal semua muslimin & muslimat! :)

Time is flying fast

Omg. Time is really flying fast. I still remember my first day at MJSC JB and now, it has been 2 months eversince. Time is flying fast, I am growing up.

A week left until school starts ; Sem 2 starts. Sem 2 will surely be hardcore. With loads of works and pressures and emotional feelings. 2 months of not going home. 2 months of having to bear the feeling of missing everyone in rahman putra.

 Or shall I say, 2 months of being matured.

Anyways, I am now updating this at Damansara Specialist hospital since Sofea got admitted last Friday. Till then, au revoir xx

Feelings change & people leave.

I guess that is how this cruel world works.


It has been 2 months eversince I left bukit rahman putra. & now, I am back in brp again. Seeing nothing have changed and that made me happy. I really thought nothing have changed. But I guess, assumptions are always hurtful..


Yesterday, as planned, my rk family had a gathering after 2 months of not seeing each other and have fun and laugh along. We were excited to see each other, I was excited. I miss them like God knows how much.. I miss their presence in my daily life, I miss doing everything with them. I miss being myself when I am with them.


But then, what made me sad was... They've changed. We've changed.. Yeah, I realize we are now from different schools and way of life. But that doesnt mean our unbroken bonding can now be broken? No, this just can never be it! We promised to stay together till the end..


Oh my, I really miss those years and moments back then. I miss 2010, a lot.

In a world of happiness

Assalamualaikum :)


Omg omg omg yesssss I am home for 2 weeks! Dang it no words could even describe my happiness now. Two weeks of being in Brp again... What a bless, Alhamdulillah :')


So anyways, yes I'd like to tell bout my new place ; MJSC Jb :) One place I never have the intention of going. As most of you know, brp is a place where my soul's buried. But I guess, as time passes by, we grow up and life goes on. So yeah, I decided to leave my loves and start a new chapter in life. 


Alhamdulillah, I made the right decision. If I could turn back time, I wont change the decision I made :) Because at first I thought I couldnt cope with the new environment, genius everywhere around the school, hostel life and new friends and far from family. But Allah made it easy and bearable for me :') With the help of new friends, homeroom members and du'a from family, I made it through for the last 2 months.


Tipu lah cakap kalau tak homesick -_-


I cried my heart out during the first week. Seriously, I cried every single daaay. Especially when it's food & prayer time. Because I've never been far from my family, and all of sudden I have to spend my time with strangers. I cried the hardest during dinner because I just miss my mum's cooking teehee. 


Just for the record, I am enjoying my life in mrsm. Excellent for my homeroom & Canopus for my class :) Oh yes! One awesome thing is our class' names are based on the brightest stars. Achernar, Bellatrix, Canopus, Deneb, Elnath, Fomalhaut & Gacrux. Teehee shoo cool B-)


So anyways, I'll update later with pictures and few stories or shall I say memorable events happened at mjsc jb :> 


Till then, au revoir!

Farewell

Okay, so this is it.


This shall be my last post until my next return. In few minutes time, I'll be going to Johor with mum and sissy. The tomorrow is the registration day. I AM SORRY for not being able to update about my last day in Brp.. But I just want everyone to know that it is a sad day indeed. I cried an ocean with everyone. To those who I didnt get the chance to say goodbye, I am vewwwwy sorry. Too much things to do, too short period of time. I'll be back in 3 weeks time, so yes please miss me! :)


Au revoir loves, everyone will not be forgotten and will be missed. Muah muah.

Alhamdulillah, syukur pada Mu Ya Allah.

Alhamdulillah :') Memang bersyukur sangat, tak terhingga rasanya. Walaupun tak dapat sekolah yang dipinta, walau berusaha kuat macam mana pun nak dapatkan sekolah yang tu, tapi takde rezeki kan. Apa nak buat :) Nasib baik Nasha pun dapat Mrsm sama. Alhamdulillah juga :)

Boleh jadi sesuatu yang kamu suka itu tidak baik buat kamu dan sesuatu yang kamu tidak suka itu sebenarnya yang terbaik buat kamu. Allah Maha Mengetahui :)

So I leave everything to Allah. He knows what is the best for me. May this decision be the right one. Ya Allah, Engkau tabahkan lah hati hamba-Mu ini. Engkau permudahkanlah segala urusanku. 

Barang tak siap lagi, baru buat list je. Mana nak terkejar kejar cari barang, nak beli baju Mrsm, nak cari stok makanan(HARUS!), nak jumpa semua orang sebelum pergi, nak print out pictures. Hari isnin minggu depan dah kena daftar, hari ahad pergi johor. Memang banyak masa pun? Hmm :(

This is a thing I should be excited about but why oh why is my heart crying? To leave BRP is one of the hardest decisions in life. To leave my classmates, my bestfriends, my cute teachers, my secret admirers (Lol on that please) and to leave my family & bed :( Rahmanians forever, insyaAllah ♥

When the love reunite

Assalamualaikum! :)


I am vewwwwy sorry for this late update. I've been busy spending my holiday with my loved ones and yes, being a lazy ass to write it all out :p But since anis qurratu ain asked me to update my blog then yes, I shall do it. :) Ain, bangga please aku update ni sebab kau tau, hahaa.


Referring to the last picture I posted, yes we had an outing. An awesome one indeed with my rkians family ♥ We went to One Utama last Wednesday, with excited feelings and indescribable feelings of missing each other badly. We meet up infront of GSC & bought The Devil's Inside ticket! The movie is PG18 but hey, who cares? We dont know when will we die so yes, make the best out of everything! :)

At first, those boarding school kids decided not to watch this movie because they're friggin' scared :p After they have been persuaded by fatin *cough the comel *cough, they said yes! Hip hip hurraaaah! :D Movie starts at 11.30 so we walked in two groups. The boys went for breakfast and the girls went for shopping! As usual, teehee :3


& then, it's movie time! When we were passing through the so-called-cinema-guards, they stopped us and asked if we're really 18 years old? We said yeah and they asked for our identity cards. We got panicked and stuffs haha seriously. But Azni & Chuan had a slowtalk with them so they let us in. Because apparently, the guards were the former students of SMKBRP so they let us in. :D

We bought two rows of seats because, I forgot to mention, there were 18 of us came that day. Imaaaaagine the havoc, haha. Adriana & An-nisaa sat beside me :) Overall, the movie was asdfghjkl scary. Too many satanic scenes and I have to warn you, if you have the intention on watching this movie, make sure you have high level of faith in Allah. Don't get too focus in watching this movie. Satanic and Christian movie, yeah.

But seriously, it was great. There were only us and one chinese family in the hall. So basically, we weren't afraid to scream our lungs out. You could tell, the boys are cowards. Seriously. Asyrul, Haziq azfar & Ridha kept on escaping the horror scenes by going to the toilet :p & Haziq literally covers his face with his hands and hoodies all the time. The funniest part was, I had to admit, everyone almost cursed everytime scary scenes appear! There's this one part where everyone in the hall was quiet and suddenly Mariam shouted, "Oh shit!" Hahahaha we laughed really hard.

Movie ended at around 1 so we went for lunch & performed our Zohor prayer :)

Bbq chicken for lunch. Yummaaay.

The gay dudes.

Since we got no plans after that, we decided to play bowling! Thanks to Haziq & Azni for paying it for us :) We took two lanes ; boys and girls each lane. 

I look retarded. Hahaha seriously..

Bajet pro.

Geram sangat sebab asyik masuk longkang. Mental disorder, haha.

Those pictures were from Haziq's iphone so yeah, thanks! :) After those small bowling tournament among us, we wandered around the mall and had fun talking and laughing. We bought candies from Candylicious! 

Thanks for this, ashie. :)

& Deanna, the pretty form 5 girl treated me Garrets popcorn because I helped her with something. Uuuu we were all happy about that though :p

We headed home at around 8. It was a day well spent with my RKians family :) After about a month of not seeing each other, it was a great meet up. Because being with them really makes me happy. It's not that they know how to create a smile on face, but they know how to create smiles AND laughters. Ain't they lovely? I just laaaav them ❤

Okay as usual, there MUST be pictures! :p

I look so cute and innocent. Hahaha not.

Couple of the day! :)

My girls ❤

Family since 2009, until forever. InsyaAllah! :)

❤  ❤ ❤ ❤

Asyrul, Haziq, Me

Weh asyrul, kau kat mana?

Aku nak pergi solat ni. Kau dah solat belum? Islam tak?

Abang Mckk dah insaf. Bagus.