When everything seems to be falling apart

You know those moments when you feel so alone? When everyone around you just couldnt be bothered on what is happening to you? When people you love so much are changing and leaving? It hurts, it hurts a lot. Some of you may or may not know how those really feels. But truth be told, it hurts. I'm tired with the society, with people around me, with life. I came to a point where everything is not worth fighting for anymore and I AM GIVING UP. Oh crap shit you dont understand me and you never will. I dont understand myself either. Because when all these things happen to you, all you wanna do is to bury yourself under the blanket and ignore the world. But could you do it? No! Because you have feelings and your mind wont stop thinking about everything. I always wonder, why do people I love always change and leave? They act as if I'm a pit stop, they came to say hi & make everything better and leave whenever they want to. It's like, i'm nothing. I'm invisible and I have a heart of a rock. For God sake people, it freaking hurts!! Seriously, I'm in a stage where I am giving up on everything. Whatever happens, happens. When I'm being nice, people'll stab me or use me. When I'm being a little bit evil, they say I'm the devil. What an ugly society. What an ugly community. What an ugly mentality. This, is what you call emotional breakdown. I don't talk to people, I dont chat with anyone on facebook, I dont update my Twitter. But I update my blog because it makes me feel as if I'm talking to someone. As if someone is listening and understand me totally.


I lose the one I love.






Bye.

Today's THE DAY

I cant believe i'm taking my result today. In few hours time.

What i'm feeling? This.

If only I could do, this.

Wordless Wednesday #2 ; Paint

Chelsea vs Manchester City

Assalamualaikum :)


Nak cerita ni, oi orang kampung mai semua dengar cepat!! Berita terhangat berita terkini!! Okay tk perlu pun, penyokong bola je sebenarnya hehe.


Malam tadi/pagi tadi pukul 4 am bersamaan dengan Selasa, 13 Disember merupakan satu perjuangan serious antara Chelsea & Manchester City. Sebelum ni MU kalah dengan MC, 6 - 1. Bolehke Chelsea mengalahkan MC atau Chelsea bakal menerima nasib seperti MU? Itu yang semua orang persoalkan.


Mari kita saksikan........







Alhamdulillah, Chelsea menang against Manchester City! Hah, in yo' face people! Sebelum ni pandang rendah sangat dekat Chelsea ugh. Mula-mula start game, Balotelli dah terus skor. Terkejut ada, pissed off pun ada. Minit ke 1.40 dah terus goal o.O Tapi menyampah tengok dia, bongkak habis.


Sekali tu Chelsea hentam balik & gol by Meireles!! :D Masa tu rasa nak menjerit pun ada tapi mengenangkan woi semua orang tidur dah nak pukul 5 pagi tu ish takpe, jerit dalam hati pun boleh. 

Hai Drogba. Hai Meireles n_n

& another gol masa penalty, by Lampard! That's the way aha aha I like it aha aha~ Yang ni memang tk kira apa dah masa Lampard goal, aku pun terus jerit goal !!!! Fuh, puas hati.

 Hai Terry. Hai Lampard ^_^

Final skor Chelsea 2 - 1 Manchester City :) Terdiam semua yang kutuk Chelsea semalam? *raises eyebrows* Tapi bersyukur sangat, ranking Chelsea pun number 3 sekarang ;)






Berbaloi stay up, tk tidur langsung semata-mata nak tunggu game pukul 4. I laf chu Chelsea ♥

Social networks = deactivated.
Phone = off.






Au revoir.

Wordless Wednesday #1 : Chocolates!

Another month, another beginning

Alhamdulillah, alive to feel December's presence.

Ahhh, so long meh no update blog? Lu pemalas gila ka? (Memang lebih dari gila)

Kali ni memang takde alasan kenapa tk update blog selain daripada MALAS. Huuuu hari hari duduk rumah makan mandi online tidur menggemukkan diri je, maka takde cerita apa pun yang boleh dijadikan sebagai update T___T

Anyways, Alhamdulillah dah Disember. Eh eh. maksudnya dah dekat dengan form 4? Eh 16? Ye fatin, terima hakikat anda semakin menjadi tua bukan muda x__x Uuuuu result pmr dalam 3 minggu lagi *JUMPS AROUND THE HOUSE HYSTERICALLY*

Sangat tak bersedia okay bye.

Owl owl Wo~ooo

I'm a wizard that owns an owl. Therefore, say hello to the pink owl on your left screen! Lol dear Muggles, please don't be jealous. You mad? Stay mad.










the fish trust me i would've picked another colour if they're available.

Ingat mengingati

MENINGGALKN SOLAT SETIAP WAKTU

- SUBUH: Dia akan disiksa selama 60 tahun didalam neraka.

- ZUHUR: Dosanya seperti membunuh 1000 jiwa orang Islam.

- ASAR: Dosanya sprti mruntuhkn ka'bah.

- MAGHRIB: Dosanya seperti berzina dengan orang tua sendiri.

- ISYA': Allah tidak redha ia hidup di bumi Allah & di segerakan agar ia mencri tempat lain.

New.......

HEADER.

Okay bye.

Will update more posts........... when I feel like updating.

Eid

Happy Eidul Adha to all Muslims in the world! :D

Jangan ponteng solat raya okay? 

& don't forget to fill your tummy with delicious foods!

Omg raya foods ♥

Take care & have a safe journey to wherever you are going :)

November, are you serious?

November? Seriously? Okay, assalamualaikum :)


I cant believe time is flying really fast. It seems that yesterday was the first day of PMR and the next minute you know it is over. Seems like yesterday was our first day of form 3 students, the next minute you know form 4 is approaching.


This is life, you gotta keep up to stay alive.


So anyways,

Welcome November!

Alhamdulillah, still breathing to feel your presence.

May you be a good month to all of us,

Amin :)

& October, you won't be forgotten ;)

See you next time

Au revoir October!

See you next time, insyaAllah.

♥

Left out

Assalamualaikum :)


Nak tahu tak....sepanjang cuti ni.... I freaking did nothing. Except for the day out with my girls on Tuesday. Besides that, ZERO. Omg my life is a total boredom.


& on addition, I got conjunctivities. Fish yes. I dont know how on earth did the virus managed to get into my eyes and ruin my life even more. The next thing I know, my left eye is totally red and itchy. So annoying urgh. 


& wherever I go I have to wear shades. Or else, people will look at me as if I'm a dracula who sucks people's blood. Lol that is kinda cool actually. Having on of your eyes red in colour and the society is afraid of you. WHO'S THE BOSS NOW ?! Okay crap. 


So wanna see my picture with the dracula eye? Scroll.

I know i'm still cute. You dont have to tell me. Huwhuwhuw. Wtf screw that. & it gets even redder ( is there such word? whatever ) the next day.


& what does my title got to do with the conjunctivities I got? Because....... I have to keep myself distant from muhhhh family. Means I can't annoy my little sister by keep on hugging and kissing her all the time.

Uuuuuuuu that is so sad x_x


& finally went to the doctor. & he gave me this eyemo kind off medicine and this eyecream which I literally have to put the cream INSIDE my left eye.




Don't chu worry, i'll survive. Au revoir, X

Tagged

Assalamualaikum :)




Haaaa serious dah lama gila tk kena tagged atau main tag tag orang ni. Itu semua zaman masa rajin update belog kot? Hahaha so anyways, they've been asking me to complete the questions so yeah i'll just do it :)


Oh btw got tagged by Anis Hanani & Nurin Nisa so yeah just gonna answer both questions here. & nope, not gonna follow the rules and create new questions :) 




11 things about me.


1) Mera nam he Norfatin Suraya.
2) My heart has been stolen by Ahmad fawwaz ♥
3) Fifteen and loving every bits of the moments.
4) PROUD RKIAN SERIOUSLY I AM.
5) Omg you dont know how much I love my family. I would kill you if you mess up with 'em
6) & not to forget how much I love my girls & boys :)
7) Hoping for straight A's in every exam i'm taking.
8) Chocolate & pizza is my thaaaaang.
9) DONT you ever touch my things without MY permission
10) I'm without phone is like a kingdom without a king.
11) I am nice :) Seriously I am. Muehehe.

•  Nurin Nisa's

1. Do you admire someone ?

     ♥ Yes, I certainly do :)

2. What do you love to do when boring ?

     ♥ Feed muhhh tummy.  

3. Who is your best friend ?

     ♥ I dont have bestfriend. I have bestfriendS :) Hajiqah, Saa, Yamyam & Adriana :D

4. Where your favourite place to go ?

     ♥ Fawwaz's heart (:

5. Who is your favourite blog among your friends ?

     ♥ Uhhh not sure, not choosing any :) Kesian dorang tau.

6. Do you love K-pop ?

     ♥ Forever no.

7. What cartoon you love ?

     ♥ Dibo the gift dragon! Oh & yes always, Spongebob :)

8. What is your dream ?

     ♥ To be fawwaz's wife. Lol joke. To own at least a Harrier, Cayenne or Brabus :) Oh and my own penthouse.

9. Who is your idol ?

     ♥ Mumayyyhhhh.

10. Who do you most closely in your family ?

     ♥ Brother? Lil sissy pun boleh hihi.

11. Love or hate friend with me ? and why

     ♥ Why would I hate you? You've been very nice & so kind & a great friend that I should keep :)

• Anis Hanani's

1) Give 3 people that you like to stalk

     ♥ Just one & that will be Ahmad fawwaz :)

2) Do you have been taken by someone & do you like it?

     ♥ By Ahmad Fawwaz & not regretting every second of it :D

3) Who is your crush?

     ♥ Aaaa malunya nak sebut nama fawwaz banyak kali :3

4) Why people love to do hashtags on facebook?

     ♥ Simple. They're just stupid and trynna act cool. BIG FAIL.

5) What is your favourite colour & why you like it?

     ♥ Purple & blue :) They make me feel calm.

6) Who is always beside you when you're in trouble?

     ♥ Ahmad fawwaz :)

     ♥ Hajiqah Hashim

     ♥ An-nisaa Jasmine

     ♥ Siti mariam

     ♥ Adriana Nadhirah

7) Do you love to hang out with your beloved friend? Where do you go?

     ♥ Omg yes yes who doesn't? Anywhere :)

8) Love is blind? Is that true? Give 3 reasons based on the question.

     ♥ Yes it is trueee. You wanna know why? Wait till your time comes ;)

9) What is your favourite quote in your life?

     ♥ Can't list down. Too many :)

10) Do you have a crush with your own teacher? Why?

     ♥ You wanna know? You seriously do? Okay :p Ustaz Amin for being the most sporting   teacher on earth. Cikgu Md Shah for being the most cutest fatherly type of teacher :3 & Cikgu Zamri for being....... no reason for that. Omg screw all this HAHAHAHA.

11) Please complete this sentence I Love / Like to be friend with Anis Hanani because she        

     is.................... 

      ♥ She is the most caring person i've ever met :) Pemurah jugak okay, very. 

Finally! Au revoir.

Pictures after PMR

Assalamualaikum :)


These pictures are taken inside the hall and after the examination. Seriously, moments cant be erased :')

Tengok azni control tuuu ;p

Yang lain kat belakang poyo konon check paper xD

p/s: especially aku, belakang azni. hihi.

lelaki -.- siap posing bermacam lagi.

exam is over!!!!

Met Puan Baizura before she left for Hajj :')

Omg excited faces ^_^

He's moving out next year :(

sjkahndwkjqryq tudung.

love to death ♥

nak pergi dekat malu, dari jauh pun bolehlah.

Dear invigilators ♥

p/s: Gambar dalam dewan tu hasil daripada ketua pengawas yang comel tu :D Hihi omg they're like the coolest invigilators i've ever seen. Peace.

PMR ; Best moments ever

Assalamualaikum :)


Okay now i'm able to update about PMR & every subject because I am seriously free, I got nothing to do. I am so lifeless after PMR. Seriously, not only me but I guess every single PMR candidates. It's like back before we took our exam, everybody is eager to enjoy freedom but now freedom only means boredom.


So i'll go through one by one, every & each subject. I'll try to recall what happened, a week passed & as you know, I tend to forget things. Hihi.




BAHASA MELAYU


Okay okay, taip dalam BM :p Hari pertama, paper pertama. Fuh! Memang cuak dia sampai nak tercirit tapi tk boleh. Bukan butterflies in tummy lagi dah, tapi elephants running in tummy. Cuba bayangkan... Macamtu lah aku punya cuak. Pagi tu dah terjaga pukul 5.30 pagi, siapkan semua slip & IC semua. Sempat ulangkaji Agama sikit.


Oh & aku sarapan! Demi exam, sanggup aku sarapan okay. Kalau tak tu, memang takkan pandang makanan awal pagi buta macamtu. 


Pendek cerita, kertas BM 1 susah. Memang susah, phew. Boleh pening kepala nak fikir jawapan paling betul. Tiba-tiba rasa macam tk pernah jumpa perkataan-perkataan tu and jawapan semua nak dekat sama .____. 


Lepas BM kertas 1, terus BM kertas 2 dalam 20 minit lepastu. Serious shit masa ni cuak gila, takut apa soalan yang keluar untuk novel :3 Sebab ramai jangka keluar soalan plot/teknik plot. Macam mana lah nak jawab? Tapi Alhamdulillah soalan agak senang keluar :) So harap harap kertas 2 boleh payung kertas 1.




AGAMA


Okay.... Agama ni pun cuak at first. Sebab macam tk ready sangat & apa yang aku baca asyik hilang je dari ingatan. Lagi lagi bahagian tokoh tu. Memang serious tension lah sebelum paper Agama. Rasa macam tak dapat jawab je.. Sebab tu kot banyak benda hilang, sebab aku cuak sangat. Haha. & Alhamdulillah berjaya jawab soalan untuk kertas Agama :')


Cuma macam biasa, kalau soalan pasal maksud perkataan bergaris tu mesti ada aku tinggalkan. Kalau nasib baik and tahu maksud dia, senang lah jawab. Tapi kalau dah taktahu sangat, tinggal jela jawabnya. Bahagian A tu aku mesti buat dua dua soalan dia bagi. So nanti pandai pandai lah pemeriksa tu ambik markah yang paling tinggi. Hihi. 




BAHASA INGGERIS




English paper 1 was okay :) Alhamdulillah the short story & poem werent that hard. & the thing we worry the most is what kind of question will be out for the novel section for paper 2 :/ Because some of them said settings or theme might come out. So yeah, getting panic as usual. Muehehe. 


But Alhamdulillah, none of the spotted came out. Instead, they asked to describe an event that makes you feel unhappy. It was quite confusing though :/ I'm not sure if they want evidence for the event or evidence to prove if the event makes us unhappy. Seriously, I got stuck for like 15 minutes for this question.




GEOGRAFI


Geography was.....easy! Seriously, it was. I kinda finish the paper early & I got scared. Because, I mean, It can't be that easy? So I decided not to sleep and recheck the paper until time's up. Alhamdulillah, managed to do that. But wait I think I took 10 minutes nap xD The paper was in the evening, what can I say. Evening = sleeping time. Not even exams could stop that. 10 minutes are enough, precious!




SCIENCE


Science paper 1 was okay. As usual, the two last questions must be about the universe or the satellites/space shuttles. & fish I hate those questions. Especially about the satellites. They'll ask you what is the function of the satellites or the function of space shuttles. I got confused of these two things, A LOT.


Paper 2 was okay too. It wasnt that hard, but it wasnt that easy either. Stucked at the cockroaches question and the indicators because I totally don't know what are those indicators for. But ALHAMDULILLAH, seriously Alhamdulillah, I got it correct. Checked with my girls after the paper & they did the same thing. Checked the book & yes, I wrote the correct answer. Seriously, thanks Allah for your blessings :')




SEJARAH




Alhamdulillah, I managed to answer the questions :) Well some of the questions are kinda tough & I wasnt sure of my own answers. But yeah I think I did well :) But the questions, I think, they made the new one. They didnt really choose the questions from the past year papers. Well, some of 'em are but only a few. Most of the questions are new. Which made some of the students cursed the History paper. Hahaha the power of History, huh?




MATHEMATICS


Maths paper 1 to me was....average. I didnt know how to do some of the questions :/ Yes I kinda suck at paper 1. Yes you have calculator & you managed to find the answer, but you just dont know if it's correct if you dont actually know the solution to the question. & seriously I always get mad at Maths paper 1 because the time given is NOT ENOUGH. I dont have time to recheck my paper and that pissed me off.


Alhamdulillah luckily paper 2 wasnt that hard. I managed to answer all the questions, including the factorisation! That totally made me happy. & for the first time, I think the hardest question was the graph. Yes. No it is not hard as in I can't answer the question but hard as in MY HANDS WERE SHAKING. TOTALLY. Terketaq-ketaq tangan cheq nak lukih graf nu biaq kasi lawa. Omg fail accent.




KEMAHIRAN HIDUP BERSEPADU - ERT




& last but not least, KH. This one paper I am totally not pro at. Never got an A unless in test. Exams? A total no-no. Seriously, I kinda like this subject because it is related to my daily life. Most girls' daily life. But I JUST DONT KNOW WHY I NEVER SCORE FOR THIS ONE FREAKING PAPER. Sometimes I'm quite confident with my answers but when I mark the papers, tetttt my answers are wrong. So frustrating y'know. & none of the questions about the value of perintang or the kadar tarif came out. Again, I think they made new questions.


Seriously JKP, how mean can you be?




& Alhamdulillah, I'm still alive throughout the whole examination. Though I got butterflies for most of the papers, I made it alive. Hurrah for all the pmr candidates for 2011 ! :D :D :D Okay enough.


& I still remember the guy, more to Uncle actually. He's the head of invigilators for the pusat BG093. Omg no words can't describe how cute he is. Seriously! His tummy is so cute, he is half bald and he's incharge in reading the rules for most of the papers. What I like about him? We have to get in the hall 15 minutes before the paper starts, to get our stationaries ready and to listen to the exam rules. & for example History paper starts at 2.30, after reading the rules and when the clock strikes 2.30, he'll say, " Kertas Sejarah anda bermula pada pukul 2.30 sehingga pukul 3.45 petang. Kertas anda bermula.....SEKARANG!! " Omg haha that moment, it feels like you're about to start a race. You can hear everyone flipping through the paper and the sound of it....Hahaha. Unforgettable memories :')


Truth be told, I miss PMR already. Who said it is freedom after pmr? Nope, not at all. Total boredom it is. I miss late night studying. I miss getting headaches for doing maths. I miss memorising all the facts for History. I miss the fun we had during Geography class with Puan Fadhilah. I miss seeing those students get so sleepy during Science & History class. I miss Puan Azlina getting mad at us for not finishing our homeworks. I miss Puan Baizura's class. I miss it when Puan Bai give us little homeworks because she loves us hihi. I miss sitting infront of the lab together and making so much noise while waiting for Teacher Annie. I miss Ustaz Amin's jokes during Agama class. I miss his useful informations and his advice to every and each of us. I miss him teasing Luqman for going to toilet so many times. I miss Puan Noraisah's giggles and her spontaneous jokes. I miss it when Puan Maznah come into the class & everybody still tease her by saying the word Puan out loud everytime we greet her. I miss touching Puan Maznah's tummy and say that there's baby in there thousand times.


I miss everything. I seriously do. The fact that I miss 2010 more than anything in the world, I still gonna miss 2011 too :( The time moves so fast, 2011 is coming to an end. & when 2012 approach, 


" Hey, I'm 16 & I miss my childhood "






p/s : Sorry post ni dah terlalu lama draft. Sorry! xD