Welcome, new month.

May you be a month full of joy & happiness.

Have a blessed Ramadhan, everyone.

Take care, xx

A whole new thing

I'm going back to Johor in few hours time. Yes, we're still in Ramadhan which means I'll be fasting at maktab with friends, not family. That saddens me a lot. I've never been far from family all these while, especially during Ramadhan.


Breathless.


It is going to be hard at first, I know. Waking up in the morning for sahur with your friends, breakfasting with your friends. Not being able to go to bazaar with your family and gather at the dining table when Maghrib is approaching. Memories will always remain memories.


I'm still at home now but I'm already drown in my own tears.


I'm gonna miss my family a lot. My little sister. Life at boarding school seems so lonely with the same routine everyday. Another 4 weeks to go till my next return. 


Till then, au revoir xx

How time flies

• It's mid of July, 2012.
• I realise how time is flying so fast.
• I realise I think a lot lately & I keep things to myself a lot.
• I just dont know how to express my feelings anymore.
• Yes, I fake my smile just to let people know I'm still alive though I'm dead inside.
• Being far from family and your own place hurts a lot.
• I still want home after 4 months of living in boarding school.
• I still cant tolerate people who judge others easily.
• I still cant accept the fact that I'm reaching the end of being sixteen.
• I'm single after 2 yrs & 6 months relationship.
• I am still trying to stand up on my own.
• I keep myself busy at boarding school so that I would forget about the outside world.
• I hate some of my wardens.
• I'm glad I am finally able to cope with the studies.
• I hate the fact that I am going back to Johor tomorrow & spend a month of Ramadhan at boarding school, not family.
• I hate seeing people change & leave & forget everything we used to go through together.
• I'm heartless.
• I hate being ignored or left out.
• I am missing moments seeing my little sister growing up and that sucks.
• I just wish for Syawal with my perfect complete family.
• I am eager with the cooperation of MRSM with Mice to raise fund for people in Somalia.
• I don't open up my stories to anyone anymore.
• I keep things to myself.
• I keep things to myself.
• I keep things to myself.

Old times

Taken from Anis's blog. I miss every and each in this picture..

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak!

Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak untuk semua umat Islam! :D 

Cepatnya masa berlalu.. Kejap je dah bulan 7, dah puasa. Lepasni dah bulan Syawal. Ya Allah, panjangkanlah umur aku sekeluarga sehingga ke penghujung Ramadhan. Amin!

Alhamdulillah, first day sahur & puasa & buka dekat rumah :') With my loved ones by my side, everything seems to be perfect. I wouldnt ask for more. Oh wait, i'd ask for a longer Ramadhan holiday so I could stay with my family hihi.

I am so not ready for fasting at boarding school with other peeps.

Nanti mesti sayu bila sahur & puasa jauh daripada family. This is my first experience, I shall say I am not strong enough to go through it. But well, lets just say this is an early preparation for overseas later. Life must go on chaiyok chaiyok.

Anyways, just to insert a favourite video of mine. Nasyid Ramadhan. Everytime dengar mesti sayu.. tsk tsk. Selamat berpuasa & selamat beramal semua muslimin & muslimat! :)

Time is flying fast

Omg. Time is really flying fast. I still remember my first day at MJSC JB and now, it has been 2 months eversince. Time is flying fast, I am growing up.

A week left until school starts ; Sem 2 starts. Sem 2 will surely be hardcore. With loads of works and pressures and emotional feelings. 2 months of not going home. 2 months of having to bear the feeling of missing everyone in rahman putra.

 Or shall I say, 2 months of being matured.

Anyways, I am now updating this at Damansara Specialist hospital since Sofea got admitted last Friday. Till then, au revoir xx

Feelings change & people leave.

I guess that is how this cruel world works.


It has been 2 months eversince I left bukit rahman putra. & now, I am back in brp again. Seeing nothing have changed and that made me happy. I really thought nothing have changed. But I guess, assumptions are always hurtful..


Yesterday, as planned, my rk family had a gathering after 2 months of not seeing each other and have fun and laugh along. We were excited to see each other, I was excited. I miss them like God knows how much.. I miss their presence in my daily life, I miss doing everything with them. I miss being myself when I am with them.


But then, what made me sad was... They've changed. We've changed.. Yeah, I realize we are now from different schools and way of life. But that doesnt mean our unbroken bonding can now be broken? No, this just can never be it! We promised to stay together till the end..


Oh my, I really miss those years and moments back then. I miss 2010, a lot.