pointless rant

people change and people grow
need to find their way along the road
dont wanna cause you pain but you should know
well that it's time for me to go


I dont know.. I think the most terrible thing anyone could ever do is to love someone and promise them forever, but their forever was in a period of time and all of sudden they wake up not feeling the same kind of love anymore and they just walk away, and the shittiest part of it all was they came back only to see the damage they've done and to walk away again later on. how did it become so easy? since when was loving for nothing became a trend? how could you love someone so bad today and act like a total stranger tomorrow?

i gotta fly fly fly away, a pair of broken wings cant make me stay.

broken and damaged is all i'll ever be. i suck in being happy, i suck in relationships, i suck in keeping things strong, i suck in hoping, i suck in practically everything. really. even the black colour is not enough to represent my soul. the pain i feel is something that cannot be escaped no matter how hard i try, no matter how far i run away, i keep finding myself back to square one and just, broken. yeah sure i told myself to stop hoping, to make the best out of everything and not to depend on others to be happy but shit screw all that, i'll never be happy. happiness wasnt meant for me. i am not destined to be happy and God never decided a path in my life that leads to happiness. all i am is a dark and broken sould wandering around trying to live everyday eventhough it hurts and it felt as if i was drying but no i'm not and i just wake up every morning finding the strength to keep on surviving the days with no strength left at all. people make fake promises, and utter sweet words and i voluntarily and helplessly believing everything eventhough i know it will lead to nowhere but another broken and depressed phase. this cycle wont stop repeating, i request for no help because whenever someone tries to come near me, all i'm good at is pushing people away so dont even bother trying to save me because sweetie pie,

 i'm already dead inside.