It was okay

It seriously was.

I thought im recovering from all this madness and sadness. I thought I was okay. I thought i could move on. I thought i could try and forget you. I thought i could let you go. I thought i'd be okay seeing you with someone else. I thought im strong enough to face this. I thought i can try to not texting or calling you. Or even, to look at your cute and gentleman face. I thought i wont adore you the way i used to. I thought i could try and forget your smell. I thought i could be happy seeing you happy, instead its the opposite cos I just feel that you are happier without me. I thought i could just pretend to be happy.

I thought I could.

But then, it changed when I think about you & make dreams up about us though I know that it will never happen & it is when, i cry myself to sleep.

Loving a person tht does not love you is like watching a star u know u cant reach,but u need to keep on trying.The reason is that,stars call fall.

Tough week

heyhihello (:

As for starting, the title explains.

Minggu ni minggu takde mood. Buat semua benda takde mood, so it turns out miserably :/ is the word miserably even exist ? entah i dont give a damn. korang paham lah sendiri hek.

tengok, nak update buhloggie pun tade mood. i was so moody for the whole weekend. berapa kali lah nak ulang perkataan moody tu -.-

aku tktahu nak update apa.

ada sapa sapa tk nak email and pass blog aku & tolong updatekan ? bayaran dia, excercise jari korang. fuh boleh kurus beb. macam jari orang main guitar and piano. ( asal aku terbayangkan nisaa & anis syafiqah O.O )

ah demmit. tears, please stop flowing could ya. im tired of wiping you on my cheeks. i am crying not just only because of him. its because of everything. everything i've done, everything i've been thinking.

i think a lot lately. causes me severe migrain. i cant sleep. i cry myself to sleep. i woke with a dull expressions. realising that everything was a dream, reality sucks much.

sometimes, i gotta stop being emotional about everything. Thanks tumblr.

Do visit my tumblr since i update it way much more than buhlog. sorry darling, you're still in my heart wohkay. anyways, wonderfulawesome.tumblr.com

i just wish i have superpowers. or maybe i can be a jumper. so that i can just go to anywhere anytime i want at any time.

boredom conquers. die. bye.

Dont blame me, blame the heart

for loving you damn fucking much.

& i love you, i really do.

Wherever you go, whatever you do, I will be right here waiting for you. Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks, I will be right here waiting for you ♥

It does hurt.

Dear bloggie, I didnt mean to leave you alone. I just cant update you. Blog ni mempunyai terlalu banyak kenangan. Everytime nak update, mesti rasa nak nangis. Look at the countdown, jantung hatiku. Nampak ? :')

I cant, i just cant. The memories are just too strong. Damn it, i need him. I want things to go back to normal. I want smiles and laughter. I cant stand anymore fight. Cos I just love him..

I still love him <3

SAYA

NAK

NANGIS.

sangat sangat tak mampu untuk bertahan..