I won't give up

" Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkau yang Maha Mengetahui segalanya apa yang tersirat dan tersurat. Sesungguhnya Engkau yang Maha Mengurniakan, yang Maha Mendengar. Maka Ya Allah, aku hambamu yang lemah, memohon kepadamu Ya Allah, Engkau kurniakanlah kekuatan buat hambamu ini. Engkau cekalkan lah jiwaku, tabahkan lah hatiku serta kuatkan lah semangatku. Andai mampu aku ubah takdirku, izinkan lah aku. Andai aku telah jauh dari-Mu, bawalah ku pulang. Ya Allah, Engkau yang Maha Pengasih, andai ada jodoh antara aku dengan si dia, maka Engkau panjangkan lah jodoh kami agar kami mampu mengikat hubungan kami dalam satu ikatan yang sah. Agar kami mampu menjadi yang halal antara satu sama lain. Kau izinkan lah supaya hubungan kami indah seperti dahulu. Kau izinkanlah kegembiraan datang menjelma dan kesedihan pergi membawa diri. Engkau izinkanlah agar kami bersatu. Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mendengar, Engkau Maha Mengasihani. Aku mohon kepada-Mu Ya Allah... Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin "






Yakin. Ye, aku perlu yakin dengan kuasa Allah & diri aku sendiri. Walau apa pun terjadi, aku telah berjanji, selagi hayat dikandung badan, selagi ingatan mampu mengingati, aku akan tetap menyayanginya. Biarlah dugaan datang menimpa, biarlah mulut manusia berkata-kata. Aku hanya perlu yakin. InsyaAllah.










I promised you. We said pinky swear, we said purple swear. I hope somewhere deep inside your heart, there's still place for me. There's still my name. & as for me, I won't leave your heart. And you will remain strongly, inside my heart. 

God decides

Assalamualaikum :)


Fate. 


Everybody has their own fate. Either you like it or not, God have decided your pathway of life. When will you die, how long will you live, when will you reach your happiness and when will you fall in love. Everything, is God's will.


I can't run away from my fate. Nobody can. True that. But yes! You can change your fate. Allah itu Maha Adil. Allah itu Maha Mendengar. Sesungguhnya jika seseorang itu berusaha untuk mengubah haluan dan takdir hidupnya, maka dengan izin-Nya insyaAllah, segalanya akan terjadi. Kata Allah, " Kun Fayakun " bermaksud, maka jadilah. ( correct me if i'm wrong )


Kekuatan. 


Kekuatan jiwa dan raga bukan lahir secara tiba-tiba. Bukan muncul entah dari mana. Bukan hadir menawarkan khidmatnya. Bukan jua hilang untuk kita mencarinya. Sesungguhnya, kekuatan itu harus dibina. Hati yang kental, semangat yang teguh dan jiwa yang tidak mudah rapuh. Sesungguhnya, satu resipi yang sangat susah untuk dituruti..




“Tidak ada  suatu musibah pun yang menimpa seseorang kecuali dengan izin Allah; dan barangsiapa yang beriman kepada Allah, nescaya Dia akan memberi petunjuk kepada hatinya. Dan Allah Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu.” (Surah At-Taghaabun:11)




Kan? Allah itu Maha Pengasih. Aku pernah terbaca dekat satu website ni, tk ingat lah sama ada ini ayat hadis atau surah tapi katanya, " Allah menurunkan ujian kepada hambanya kerana Dia merinudkan rintihan dan tangisan hambanya memohon bantuan-Nya ". Sesungguhnya, mengadulah kepada Allah..




Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Mintalah pertolongan dengan sabar dan solat, sesungguhnya Allah bersama-sama orang yang sabar. [al-Baqarah: 153]




" Dan berilah berita gembira bagi orang-orang yang bersabar. "
- Al-baqarah, 155 -












Innalillah...

What am I doing here

This is freaking scary.

Wake me up when September ends.

Lol.

No be serious i gotta study bye.

Thank God

Alhamdulillah :')

Through thick and thin, up & down,

You were there for me all the time with no doubt.

More to come, baby.

Lots of love, xoxo

I'm tired

Assalamualaikum :)


See, you shoudnt get me started on blogging again because i know i wont stop -.- Luckily today is Sunday, means no laptop for the rest of the week. Wohooo! *awkward silence*


So anyway, referring to the title, Yes i'm tired. Not like tired as in I ate too much ( :p ) or from the visits to cousins house or from getting duit raya<----- very impossible.


But this tired i'm talking is the tired i get from studying. from thinking too much. from those negative thoughts. and most importantly, from the pressure......PRESSURE.


God, the trial is in less than a month.... PRESSUREEEEEE!


Yes, that one. Hahaha I somehow rather find it funny because i can't remember when was the last time I get panic for big exams. I wasnt like this when I had my UPSR. Just those goofy-butterflies feelings in my stomach and thats just it.


But this time, it's different :/ I get panic whenever i'm not able to answer any question or whenever i think about " what if i dont..... what if im not able to get.... "  What if this and what if that. Just so you know, too much of " what if " can give you the same pressure amount just like when you have to choose between kinder bueno or ferrero roche. Okay crap.


I'm tired for the fact that I need (!) to push myself more to get better..... no, excellent results. Daily weekdays routine = School in the morning, studying alone in the evening and studying with mum at night. & if mum have classes at night, means the studying alone routine will be continued at night.


Wait..... is it just me complaining about this or is it everyone is having the same routine and they're not complaining? Oh well, what can I do. I have to keep moving forward and stay strong, dont give up & stay positive until the big exam approach.


Much much thanks to everyone who has been giving supports. xoxo ♥






Well, back to reality readers. Books await. Au revoir, xo.

Trial PMR

Assalamualaikum.


Budak budak tu dok complain " Fatin! Kenapa kau tak update blog? " " Fatin, bila nak update? Penat aku tunggu. " " Fatin cepatla update jangan la malas ". Hakikatnya aku memang pemalas ngiahaha.


Okay fine. Long story short, just a quick one.


As far as you know, pmr 2011 candidates had taken their trial week before Eid and this is the result week. Pui. How i freaking hate this week.


This trial was bombastic. Managed to make most of the rkian students to burst into tears. Yes, including me. I guess everyone was disappointed with their results. Me? I am more than disappointed. I suck really bad this time.


Thats why they say ; One moment you're on top, the next minute you're below.


& now i'm studying like hell and i guess sleeping is no longer important in my daily routine. Tsk tsk how sad. It's okay. Bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian.

Note to self : Study and stay strong. Dont give up, dont die. Mwehehe.

So am I

" Wow, I'm such an awful daughter. I feel so bad!!! I wanna stay in my room or go somewhere far away from here until I'm confident enough to get straight A's! Can I just spent another 3 weeks studying alone? I don't feel like seeing people. I'm such a disgrace T_T anyone wants to change place wih me? Make my parents proud, please?  " - Anis Syafiqah