Teachers and Exams

Salam.

As you people know, we're having exams this week. We started last monday. So far, 4 papers down. 4 more to go.

Well, so far so good. Maths was easy, Science was a so-so. Bm was.... um yeah. & english was confusing. The questions mostly have the same meaning for answers, which made us hard to decide. But i keep on re-checking the answers till time's up. Trust me, i didnt sleep at all.

What an improvement.

Bahasa cina/tamil/arab after recess. So we sat in the class, studying. I studied like hell, i tell you. I study till late night at home and i study again at school. I keep on repeating the same notes to memorise and understand everything. So i managed to answer Science questions. But maybe i answered wrongly on question blood and alveolus, subjective :/

Suddenly hajar was telling us that RK 1 got their marks for English paper. Surprisingly, only 7-8 got A for English, for their class. We were like, whatthefish. We're so dead meat. If the rk1 students got that marks, what about us ? They said puan afida was really pissed off. Who woudnt, right. I was being so impatient that i went to the staff room and meet puan afida.

i borrowed her answer sheet and check my answers. & demmit, i think i got 9 wrongs for english paper. That. is. so. frustrating. Well i dont really know what are my real marks, that is oonly based on my own calculation. But if i seriously get 9 wrongs, imma kill myself.

They said Ridha got B for english. Listen, he's like one of the smartest kid in that class and he got B. I think he got 78. Ramai gila kot dapat 78. Puan Baizura was absent so we didnt get to know our marks. But i texted her just now telling her about the paper and she said dont worry, what is done is done. Yeah..

BUT THEN &*%$%^#(* ABOUT THE AGREEMENT. ABOUT THE AGREEMENT WE MADE. IMMA DIE IMMA DIE IMMA DIE. WHY DO I HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIS. AMAGAD, IMMA DIE.

Yes teachers, you put on too high expectation on us. What if many students from both classes didnt get 8As, will all of us be kicked out ? Will all of us get punishments ? Heh. Too high expectation teacher, too high.

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I am so stress

Salam.

Just got home and very tired. very. very. very. In addition of the senggugut, i can barely stand.

So yeah, im very stress. very very very again. Exam is next week. I've read everything but i keep on having the feeling of unprepared. Ustad wont specify on what topic so we have to read everything. Yeaah. I read everything but remember everything ? Not yet.

Sejarah, done chapter 1. Chapter two to go. I think chapter two is way too long and kinda hard to remember, but i think i can make it :/ OH WAIT, I SURELY CAN.

90% done about science. Just a little bit here and there.

Maths :/ Im glad this test wont have the Indices topic or i'll be dead meat. Still trying my best to cope with that topic. But yeah, am trying my best to understand circles very well, especially when it comes to cyclic. Hope i wont be having much problems with that.

KH KH KH KH AMAGAAAAD. The most worrying subject ever. how to memorise everything ? the name, components, symbols, functions, power, calculation. God, please help me.

Other than that, im stressed about the exam. The past is haunting me. I feel so phobia. Tak cuak sangat kalau tak ingat ke apa ke. Tapi lagi cuak kalau fobia. I feel like i cant do it. I can feel the pressure. From the teachers, the principal and pk hems and from my mum. The most stressful thing ever is,

The pressure from myself. I keep on losing the confidence i built. After studying or when i've done my revision, i feel that i can do it. I know i can answer the questions. But when the teachers remind us of this and that, of the past, of the consequences we're going to pay if shits happen, that definitely scares me to death. and BOOM, I LOST MY CONFIDENCE.

If its easy to build, i dont mind. Keep on losing my confidence as much as you want. But it aint easy ! I tell you, IT IS NOT EASY !!!!!!!! I keep on talking to myself, what will happen if i dont get this and that ? What will i do ? How can I survive ? Will I stay alive ? Will I stay strong to keep on going with life ? Will i stay strong to face everyone ? Will i stay strong to face my mother ? & the most important this is, will i stay strong to keep on staying strong ?

Where can i find that strong and guts when i dont even have confidence ?

Right now, this very moment, i feel like i could close my eyes and turn back time. If only i could change back everything and not acting stupid, i wont be facing this situation now. I wont be having this type of feeling. I wont be feeling like im the stupidest girl on earth. like im the troublemaker in my family.

or at least, i could close my eyes forever.

p/s : is trying my best to handle this tough moment. Please Fatin, you have to stay strong, no matter what. Just believe in yourself, eventhough the slightest bit.

Happy Tuesday

Salam.

It's 4 pm and i am very sleepy >.<

Did some tatabahasa exercise for Bm this morning.

Masa KH pergi bengkel sebab nak pateri komponen. Tiba tiba cikgu mintak kerja lukisan skematik and lukisan gambarajah. Skematik dah siap tapi gambarajah baru halfway. Cikgu kata siapa tk buat kena denda seringgit. Oh dayyum :O Tapi cikgu kata siapa yang buat sikit tk payah so tk kena denda. Weheee. Simpan duit makan aku :D

Waktu rehat makan bekal bawak dari rumah :') I so terasa macam budak budak, comeeel. Hihi

Lepas rehat kena pergi Science lab. Tengok, asyik naik turun naik turun tangga, mana tak penat. Dah lah kelas tingkat 3, dah naaaaaaaik sampai atas kena turun balik untuk pergi lab. Sebelum rehat tadi naaaaaaaaik atas untuk hantar barang KH. Tapi kenapa aku tk kurus kurus pun >.<

Masa sains tadi agak mengantuk, entah kenapa lah kalau lab je ngantuk ngantuk ngantuk. OH kitorang dah masuk chapter reproduction. & tadi macam ada game tau during the lesson, sebab cikgu pasang CD kan. Its like you have to click play and choose which sperm you think will make it into the ovum. Kalau tekan play and do nothing, all the sperms will die.

So kitorang semua macam excited sebab macam comel je game ni haha. At first cikgu tekan play and did nothing, so all the sperms died. Second try cikgu tekan play and clicked at one of the sperms, & that sperm made it into the ovum ! we were all so happy that we clapped. Hahahahaha. It was so cute !

Buat latihan revision bab 1 untuk Sejarah. I can answer all the questions, cuma stuck sikit bahagian anti-japanese groups. I feel so happy y'know :') Jarang taaaaau dapat faham the whole bab for Sejarah.

Eh lepas sejarah apa eh o.O OH YEAH AGAMA. Kena berpecah into groups and masuk kelas lain lain -.- Sebab ustad tak masuk, ada hal kot. Some kena pergi kelas 3kaa, 3B, 3C and 3D. Aku dengan few others kena masuk kelas 3C. Nasib baik makcik hajiqah group dengan aku.

Bunyi loceng terus cepat cepat balik kelas sebab rasa macam awkward sangat dekat kelas orang O.O Makan makan kat kantin and prep till 2.30.

Dah dah cukup cukup blogging. Tuuuu, books on the table are calling. Hihi daily routine.

Later, xx.

Haziqah Hashim

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AAAA banyak sangat nak cerita tapi takde masa. sangat sangat takde masa. like seriously, exam's next week. I have to read everything and i dont have time. Ni bukan belajar last minute, tapi ni cuak punya pasal sampai kena re-read many times. hek hek kesian saya.

So ummmm, nak cerita pasal first time buat popia haritu ! Well takdelah cun melecun mana kan but sedap lah jugak dimakan :) & nak cerita pasal accidents. Oh nak tahu tak nak tahu tak, semalam fawwaz tak call langsung :/ Biasanya dia call after riadah and before tidur tapi semalam langsung tak.

I went cuckoo till this morning.

Hahaha. Sebab rasa awkward kalau dia tk call. Sheesh :/ Malam tadi pun tidur pukul 3.30 pagi sebab dia tk call kan so rasa tk boleh tidur. Hahaha woi sumpah gedik lah aku ni. Hari ni kalau dia tk call jugak.. taktahu lah nak cakap apa. Biarlah. heh heh.

So rasanya, i'll be updating long posts as soon as i finish my exams next week ! Eh wait, depends lah. Maybe nak terus blah dari Kl hari khamis tu sebab kitorang habis exam hari khamis. mungkin tk datang hari jumaat. hihi i love you mama xx <3

Okay gotta finish up some notes and some drawings for KH and gotta hit the exercise books. Revision honey, revision.