Again

Hello.

I am now going to sleep. Cos i am going to wake up at 3, InsyaAllah. With the help of loads of people, love yahh guys.

Please fatin, please wake up as soon as they call you. Dont, waste their credits HEHE.

Will update to tell if I manage to wake this lazy body up :D

Girl

Ehem, you are taking away my sistah, from me.

Im still here sitting and watching,doing nothing bout that. Guess my years with her are overs. Your turn huh ?

sunyi

Hello.

Entah post yang ke berapa for today.

Uhm, rumah tengah sunyi sepi gila nak mati sekarang. Sofea and bibik tidur. Abang ngah is in his room. Mama keluar, ada kelas.

I'm all alone infront of the computer.

I hate this feeling. I'm all alone, my phone is not ringing and even if it does, its not his name that appears on the screen. I miss him.

Aha. as if he cares.

I need chocolate, I need to run, I need candies, I need roller-coaster.

@#^&^*(^$

Yellow.

Wohkay like for serious, i wanna cry badly. Someone ? :'( awaaaaak.

According to my older post, i drank nescafe and wanted to stay up till morning, aite ? Ohkay i did. Dah minum nescafe, mata bagi kerjasama till 2.30. Bila dah pukul 2.30, badan rasa macam penat. So i decided to lay down, dekat ruang tamu. BARING JE.

But as for backup, dah set alarm kuat kuat at 3. & they said they're gonna call me. So yeah, pergilah baring. Memang masa tu terus tertidur, as expected. Around 3, alarm berbunyi. then aku pegi tutup, idiot me. Around 3 something, lokman called. Aku angkat, aku siap bercakap lagi dengan dia. Aku ingat walaupun aku mamai. Then sedar tk sedar, faris ada message & misscall. Itu memang tk sedar langsung lah.

Nak tahu aku sedar pukul berapa ?

Bila bibik turun bawah and kejut aku, bangun untuk sahur. Tahu tak, pukul limaaaaaa.

Masa bangun tu memang nak menjerit dah tengok jam pukul berapa. Lepastu memang sumpah tetiba macam emo gila nak mampus. Mata dah berair masa tu, tinggal tunggu nak mengalir je kot airmata tu. Sebab aku dah macam seriously niat nak bangun malam tu, taknak tidur. Tapi sebabkan kelalaian sendiri, aku tertidur. Memang effingly sakit hati lah kan.

Ah still tengah sakit hati sekarang.

Aku rasa macam EEEE kenapalah aku bengap sangat pergi baring, kenapa aku tk stay up je &^$@#*!@%*&%^ !

Masa solat subuh kat surau pagi tadi pun almost nangis. Sebab macam stressed out gila and i just dont know what to do and who to talk to. Its like i prefer keeping it to myself nowadays.

EEEEE im living a dull life now. Sekolah, cepatlah start. Bosan ni, cuti tade menda nak buat. AHHH. I prefer going to school rather that sitting at home doing nothing.

Its 7.41 in the morning and im not going to tuition, since i dont have any transport. supposedly its azni's turn for this week, but ayah azni kena balik kampung, and adriana tk dapat amek cos she's going out with her mum and yamyam is sick. so yeah im stuck here all alone doing nothing except buhlogging here with no topic.

I need sleep. But i dont want to sleep. Sing me lullaby please.

Kak atiqah was suppose to come to my house practically 3 minutes ago. Dia nak pinjam buku teks sejarah. Woot woot pmr is in a month. Idontknow but i think everyone is happy cos its coming to an end. i am happy too HEHEHE.

Jari dah tak larat nak tekan keyboard. Hehh take care everyone.

Ya Allah, kau kuatkan lah semangatku dan kau tabahkan lah hatiku.

Loveeees,

Sometimes, I feel like I'm going out of my mind

Boy the way you do me it's a damn crime

And then you smile at me and it's alright

With you there ain't no in-between

Every time that I walk out the door

Tell myself I won't take it no more

there's a part of me that won't let you go

Keep saying yes while my minds saying no

Me and my heart we got issues

don't know if I should hate you or miss you

Damn I wish that I could resist you

can't decide if I should slap you or kiss you

Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues

We got issues, issues, issues

It's so hard, boy you left me hanging for so long

You empty out my love until it's all gone

You change the words but still is that the same song

I'm tired of the melody

Change my number and throw out your clothes

But my feeling for you it still shows

I keep building a wall round my heart

But then I see you and it all falls apart

Me and my heart we got issues

don't know if I should hate you or miss you (damn I wish)

Damn I wish I that could resist you (can't decide)

can't decide if I should slap you or kiss you

Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (ooooh)

We got issues, issues, issues

Why fight it, can't hide it

Truth is I think I like it

Confusion, illusion

Still I don't know which way to go

Me and my heart we got issues

don't know if I should hate you or miss you

Damn I wish that I could resist you

can't decide if I should slap you or kiss you (me and my heart)

Me and my heart we got issues (we gotta work this thing out)

don't know if I should hate you or miss you (I don't know)

Damn I wish that I could resist you (yeah)

can't decide if I should slap you or kiss you

Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues

We got issues, issues, issues

We got issues, issues, issues (me and my heart)

We got issues, issues, issues

Me and my heart we got issues (we gotta decide which way to go)

don't know if I should hate you or miss you..

suits me very well.

Sleepless

Yellow ;D

Its 12.43 in the morning and im trying my best not to sleep. * sumpah dah tak tahan ni -___-

Mata macam ada force tarikan untuk tidur je sekarang ni, AHHH. Come on come on, cubalah bekerjasama sikit ! Ish, gigit kang.

Beberapa malam yang lepas, aku cuba tidur then cuba bangun around 2 or 3. Epic fail. Memang langsung tk bangun, sabo jelah haku. Bila bangun waktu sahur pukul 5, frust menonggeng atas katil tu. Eh korang jangan bayangkan, dosa. HAHA xD

So sekarang im trying the new way. Takyah tidur langsung. Hamek kau. Esok pagi jadi macam panda mata bengkak kepala teleng. Haa ni takpe bayangkan sebab aku rasa panda tuh comel HAHA perasan lagi.

Tadi sebelum pergi terawih, dah pesan awal awal kat mama mintak tolong belikan satu tin nescafe ais, baru sedap minum :D balik terawih semangat wooh mana nescafe mana nescafe. Dah minum habis satu tin, asal sekarang aku ngantuk lagiii T______T nescafe ni pun mesti menggedik jugak ni.

Orang yang minum tu tk perasan pulak dia gedik eh HEHEHE.

Wohkay mata, sila bekerjasama. Its currently 1 am, and theres like 2 hours left till 3. Please please please help me. I seriously dont want to sleep.

Kan best kalau dia ada, boleh main texting calling, heee. Phone, pergi lah bunuh diri sendiri.

truth be told , i miss you.

School before rayaa

hello (:

Today is the last dah of schooling, then we are having 2 weeks of holiday ; 2 weeks. Effingly boring, i guess.

I used to like holiday. Cos i can sleep and being lazy all day HEHE. But i guess i changed ecehh poyo gedik. Sekarang holiday tk tahu nak buat apaa. I mean like, waking up in the morning and thinking what should i do for the rest of the day. ONLINE -_____-

Phone dah boleh campak longkang dah, takde guna.

EEEE cepatlah raya. At least i got cousins to play with. Jadi budakbudak, awwwwh rindu zaman gedik main masak masak dulu xD rindu zaman mengacau kat dapur bila mak masak :D sekarang tk boleh kacau, dah kena tolong kat dapur je -.-

Nak kutip duit raya banyak banyak lah tahun ni :D Nak guna duit untuk beli hadiah awaaak<3

Wohkie update buhlog pun semakin membosankan. Weih buhlog, cuba kau bercakap, at least aku tadelah membebel sorang sorang kat sini. Sapa kalau besar ada angan2 nak jadi mak yang kuat membebel kat suami dgn anak, patut ada blog and update hari hari. Haa pastu bebel lah kau macam org gila.

Aku yang tengah update ni pun macam orang gila. Ish ish.

I'm trying my best to hold on, though its something im not sure. Ya Allah, Kau bantulah hambamu ini.