It does hurt.

Dear bloggie, I didnt mean to leave you alone. I just cant update you. Blog ni mempunyai terlalu banyak kenangan. Everytime nak update, mesti rasa nak nangis. Look at the countdown, jantung hatiku. Nampak ? :')

I cant, i just cant. The memories are just too strong. Damn it, i need him. I want things to go back to normal. I want smiles and laughter. I cant stand anymore fight. Cos I just love him..

I still love him <3

SAYA

NAK

NANGIS.

sangat sangat tak mampu untuk bertahan..

My Superhero

Call me an idiot, call me a bitch, call me dumbass or anything, it wont change me. Cos whatever he did, i still love him & will always do.

As I said, I accept all his imperfections. That makes him, special.

Sometimes, it starts from the place you can never think of. Somewhere you used to think it is, special.

No doubt,

Geez, i miss you.

Ceramah Isra' & Mikraj

heyhihello (:

Semalam kitorang ada ceramah sempena sambutan isra' & mikraj, kat perhimpunan. Kitorang dah semangat sebab mesti ceramah sampai rehat, then takyah belajar for sejarah, since my folio aint done yet. it has been forever. huahua. betapa malasnya aku -.-

Masa cikgu suruh budak-budak agama Islam duduk kat perhimpunan, aku uruskan lah the girls since aku jaga line kelas 3C. Then i guess, budak-budak perempuan line kelas 3D kot, lambat gila duduk. So i was like,

fatin : cepatlah duduk ! berhenti lah bercakap, susah sangat ke nak duduk, ish -.-

minah : INGAT SENANG KE NAK DUDUK ? Yelah yelah, NAK DUDUK LAH NI. ERGH.

Kalau tk reti duduk, saya SANGGUP sponsor awak pergi tadika untuk belajar balik, cerdik.

Then semua lelaki kena bergerak ke tepi & perempuan bergerak ke depan. Sebab takut nanti perempuan panas dkat belakang. Awh, perempuan special ;D

Biasanya penceramah Ustaz Uda, tapi kalini tukar Ustaz Rizal, guru agama & disiplin sekolah rawang. Kitorang memula macam tak semangat jea, sebab ustaz uda tu best, ustaz rizal ni cam first time en.. so yeah kitorang pun dengar jela.

OKAY GOD.

Dia tk se-best ustaz uda, tapi he's still good at jokes. & suka buat orang terkejut -.- nasib baik jantung saya masih mampu mengepam darah dengan baik lagi. Oh and, dia pandai mainkan emosi orang. Not really mainkan, but macam ekspresskan. Haa sorta.

I cried 2 times.

Mula-mula masa dia suruh letak tangan kat jantung and feel the beat. Lepastu sebut Allah 7 kali. Taktahu lah, rasa macam tenang and ringan sangat diri.

Kedua masa last yang kita baca doa ramai-ramai, doa yang panjang tu. Nangis bila sampai part dia cakap ibu tetap sendukkan nasi walaupun kita dah sekolah menengah, ayah pulak sendukkan lauk untuk kita. then solat jemaah sama-sama, lepas solat ayah datang peluk kita, kita pulak tak tahan nangis then lari nangis kat mak.

You know, that really touches my heart. I can really imagine that happening in my family. Memang sangat terharu :')

Oh and ceramah dia banyak kesedaran jugak, especially part yang budak 11 tahun kat Indonesia yang tertinggal satu solat, and macam mana dia diseksa. Aku dengar dah macam ni :O

Around 9.30 dah habis ceramah. So balik kelas and belajar agama sikit. Lepastu rehat. Schedule as usual after rehat.

Oh i should have record what zeebangla did. Muahaha.

p/s : phone dia kena rampas. again. aku takut dia akan kena marah dengan mak dia, all because of me. sangat sangat takut :( and imisshim so much.

Karma ; The Law of Nature

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Karma itu, pasti berlaku.